Buckfever's Clinical VED(pumping) Journal (p20) (2024)

10/22/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 177.4 @ 18%

Yesterday activity level: Walking 2X1.3 miles

I had a business issue to deal with which developed yesterday which was clouding my mind so got up early. Wouldn’t put too much stock in the weight reading as I had just pounded some fluids.

Basically there is a retarded family member of the leasing manager that proposed a mentally retarded idea to me out of left field and I asked if that had been run by management and they assured me they had. So I had to reach out to management and kindly point out the disastrous implications for a transition that is upcoming for them. Pretty clear from the initial response that they knew nothing of it. Just another fly in the ointment but it forced me to bring forward the thinking regarding the transition, which I wasn’t even going to start thinking about till next Spring. I think nepotism in business is mostly a bad idea, but when there is a clear and repeated history of abject failure, maybe cut them loose? Just saying.

10/23/3024

Fast Edge

Weight: 178.2 @ 18%

I forgot to take the weight right off and had a cup of coffee first so that reading is higher.

Yesterday activity level: Walking 2X1.3 miles

I was exhausted and feeling depleted yesterday, I suspect a combination of lack of sleep and work stress and had a couple extra servings of carbs. Slept better last night and should have an active day today.

I used a Neutrogena Norwegian hand cream as a moisturizer and that helped exfoliate and rehydrate the shaft tissues and so restarted using the brightening serum last night. I am being more careful not to get that on the glans tissues and then afterwards applying the moisturizer to the glans to protect it. That seems to have worked. There has been tremendous progress on brightening the darkened areas. I think we’re better than half way there.
I am not sure why the other product did not work the reviews are better but maybe it takes longer or maybe the source was not legit, hard to say

The girl is coming back around today so we’ll see how that goes, but I’m not going to approach so I imagine that if intimacy occurs again sometime in the future that will be the litmus test.

I’ll tell you one thing though and I suppose that it’s subject to criticism but there is a reason why I’d evolved towards being a monster in the bedroom. And that is despite the pervasive negative masculine narratives, there is no reward for being tepid in life and there is no short run narrative that will overcome eons of evolution of what manifests in attraction and arousal.

If I’m with a woman I view it my responsibility to fuck her brains out. And I am not suggesting being a brute or toxic whatever your style is have the courage to embrace it. But do not be dissuaded from throwing in on your back and handling your business.

10/24/2024

Fast Edge

Weight: 177.2 @ 18.1%

Yesterday activity level: Walk 3X1.3 miles, Archery: 54 rounds, 10 flights on the sledding hill with the 40lb vest

Have not been consistent with the meal plan, been grabbing extra carbs for fuel because of the lack of sleep. Finally got some sleep last night, but I’ll need a few consistent days.

The lightening treatment is going well. Would like that to be resolved before getting back to the pump.

Girl says she’s going to be around for a week and seems pleasant. I guess if intimacy happens we’ll see how she responds after what I’ll do to her in the bedroom.

I got to deal with an asshole client at work today after dealing with his wife a few days ago. I have to set him straight about what my role is, I don’t think he’s stupid, but now a days, you just never know.